Wow, I ... Well, yes, I'm speechless. Fast. I think I know the first time what it really means to feel love. I was in love before, had relations before and everything was fine and I thought me on the right track. But now arrived, I must say, no. I am now where I need to be where I want to be.
Everything I experience is exciting, is new though I have experienced it zich times. I sense a gratitude than ever before. Actually, as never before. At last I know what it really means to feel gratitude. Deep humility before the One who makes his own possible. Tangible tribute to the contrary put affection. So much is new.
Never have I had the emotion with a smile on her lips to cry in earnest.
I cry because the desire haunts me, but I smile because I know we will meet again.
It is a disbelief that all this really happens. I really feel this good and may even feel good. It fills me when it's there, turns my stomach when she leaves. It is the ardent wish that comes true. There is nothing in it, what a hook is even close. Fine and smooth, without blemish. Entirely without flaws, it stands before me, I confess what they feel and my eyes are filling up slowly, almost imperceptibly, with tears because I am touched, deeply touched. It's like a finger of his open directly onto the tooth is out, just that it feels good, but yet it goes directly into the joints and marrow.
In it there are no principles, no limits, nothing. And yet everything. For her, I think everything was always looking. I laugh at her, with laughter. Am filled with emotion, full as I had never before considered to be able to.
Everything seems so surreal. As if that might not be. So when someone would explain the sudden, we would have won. What? In life. Man blinked in disbelief. Sleep a night over it. But by the next morning, we sure it happens. Nevertheless, the disbelief.
The latent strength to do anything, because I created a new retreat. A place where I can be ME. Where I am who I am, and be loved for it. A place where even I love you. A place with her - and really emotional. The power to move mountains, the power to motivate yourself even when neither mind nor body have power, all this is to their credit.
Partially I fear for my happiness. For although I grew up sheltered objectively, I was inside of me always dissatisfied. Never had anything I wanted, never wanted what I could have. But now all that is passé. Get used to is hard. To Understand you will ultimately still part of the fun. Knowing you have met there the man with whom they share their life or wants to share at least.
Every love song I find myself again. I see them in every line. Find us in every word spoken. Am touched by each verse.
I know that it is there and waiting for me to take this time to the other way. And I will not let you down, will be there for you, every time you need me.
But much of what I was taught what I could find new and what has touched me deeply, that was outstanding at an entirely new and different view of love. Love is a strong .. no, the strongest feeling. This feeling wants to pursue by default. One wants to satisfy his own emotion. The yearning provide relief. By the partner is near, spend time with him. This is right and good. Also I would like to pursue my desire. Only drifted from my thoughts. I wondered how far I could or would. Where does the love? What I mean is, I've loved to make me and my partner happy. But I know now that I'm not important that I make myself happy. I'm happy and I will continue to be. But the reason is not derived from it, because I have feelings for someone and she returned his feelings. The reason why I'm happy am is strictly selfish than before. Ironically White selfish even though I do not so much matter to my own happiness. For me is important, and only when I allow myself to feel myself well when I know that she's fine. If I know that it feels good, then I will happy. I can honestly say that I had in my life no longer wants to be happy, this is not my goal. My goal, my job, I understand it, to make them happy. And only if I mean this task manageable, I can be happy, although I was not sure investing. Strictly speaking, it's me that is just about me as I pursue my only intention only that is my intention, she and her happiness level. I want to make the best of what I can and I do not want it for me, not even for us. I want it just for her. I know I am now ready to say, I will do what is necessary so that it shines. Thus it shines and the world a more beautiful. And if I do, come out of her life, then I'll do that. Whilst I would do without itself must, I will do that. And if I must stop this self-love so that she can love again, I will do that. And if I feel this for someone I can look into those eyes and say without hesitation that I love her.
"She said 'Do it',
I looked at her, took her hand and knew
'Forever' I whispered
and jumped with her. "
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